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and i don't think i have ever been happier in my life :)
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[13 Dec 2006|11:11pm] |
Today had so many horrible and wonderful moments. that seems to be the common theme of my life since senior year has started. There is no middle ground.
There is something about driving to Mansfield and back with Colleen Annie and Jinks and talking about everything that gets you in a livejournal kind of mood. Tonight was my first practice with St. Mary's Choir and mr davey was surprising different around these people. First of he is REALLY religious which i always got a sense of but still is quite shocking to see. I never realized how good he is at teaching things like its funny how much i take for granted how helpful he is to the zero amount of skill that i have.
I still have to right a proposal for that Broadway Night. meh
i find out if i get into college in 17 days.
I am slowly becoming obsessed with Ella Fitzgerald. thats weird
I love white trash christmas lights. plahahhahahahahh
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[23 Nov 2006|03:41pm] |
Lets get something straight before we get into this. I am not updating my livejournal to discuss the injustice that occurred yesturday at the pep rally i'm updating because i am bored to death and my 6 hour sulkathon last night gave me alot of time to think.
I'm posessive. I have this ridiculous need to know exactly what is mine and i get frightenly jealous when i question these posessions. which are more times than not clothes or people....i'm a sad person
I'm obsessive. I obsess over things and talk about them alot in a really animated way to the point where if i had to talk to myself i'm pretty sure i wouldn't like me.
I'm a bad story teller but i am constantly just talking to talk. what i want to say never comes out right and its just a jumbled mess of swears and skewed facts.
I'm basically crazy. like mentally disturbed.
I'm slowly messing up my life and i can't even tell anyone.
i think i might be one of those people who have to much pride but i can't tell yet.
did i mention i was crazy, its sort of the route of all my evils.
Every person who has called the house today doesn't speak english and it pisses me off cause i'm ignant...mad ignant.
I am horrible at handling things. I'm angry when i really have no reason to be. I absolutely crumble when someone i love is angry at me or anyone at all for that matter. I wouldn't exactly call myself insecure but i care so much about what people think that i tend to alter my thoughts by it.
Spirit wall has given me more miss guided anger then i know what to do with. until i find the person i can blame which doesn't exclude myself all of you will have to endure the wrath of Michelle.
The thought of Monday makes me ill
I'm in a church choir for a church i don't even belong to because i can't get up the courage to join my own...143 driving to mansfield
this is long and boring
but who reads these anymore anyway
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[30 May 2006|08:21pm] |
Here are something you should know
If you walk into Cresent Ridge or up to Window do not say the word regular.
Regular ice cream does not mean vanilla
We have Kiddie Small and Large Cones not REGULAR
Don't expect me to know wat size you want or whether you want a cup or a cone.
If you order a large Cup or Cone Of Moose Tracks, Vanilla, Oreo, or Peanut Butter Cup i will Kill your family.
Scooping Peanut Butter Sauce into Sundaes makes me wanna throw up
THE HOT DOGS ARE GROSS DON'T ORDER THEM
If you order a Large Cone in a dish with hot fugde Whip cream and a cherry on it I will charge you for a Sundae.
This morning i went the Sharon Starbuck and sipped a Java Chip Frappachino while reading a highly over rated piece of American Literature. It sure beat the hell outta going to first hour.
I should be writing my Billy Budd essay, but then again i should have done alot of things in my life.
I should be going to six flags this thursday. But i'm not. For that I am Bitter.
I miss Phil.
Mad Love
Michelle Alexandra Dominique Audain
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I am updating thanks to gallagher, because amidst all the chaos of packing, avoiding my research project, and studying for a fucking math test i had almost forgotten that i usually use my intermediate language skills to fully inform fine readers such as urselves about how terribly excited i am for the up coming events in my life. Where shall we start.
Well i am getting on a plane to go to France and Spain in about 13 hours.
Yesturday My beautiful wife and wonderful best friends left an easter basket filled with wonderful surprises on my doorstep. I almost cried looking at the basket. I really don't no what i would do if casey and leah weren't going on this trip,because it would be a futher proclamation of how much i will miss these girls when i go away to college. AH' i'm like tearing up right now. And when i come back they will be all tatooed and pierced lol.
It is now 6:00 am ish and i really should be studying but i really really really really really don't want to. I would have totally skipped first hour if i wasn't such a pansy bitch/ had someone to skip with, but alas i am stuck in the hollowed halls of mr kellogg class room taking a test from hell. Aleast the rest of my day should be semi easy.....prob not, but i will beat bitches up if it isn't.
okay i have definite ish to do so i am gonna bounce.
Ill supplement of hugs and kisses
see you bitches in 10 days!
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I always find it necessary to update my livejournal before something such as tomorrows ski trip happens, because i like to document that rare excitement you get for trips of this sort. As of late my journal has been less live and more subconsious so my lovely lj readers i must make it up to you.
Yesturday was one of those days you look back on years from now and wonder why there weren't more of them. In an attempt to be sporty Laura Christine Michael and I set out to commit in sports activity unfortunatly the basically sub zero temperatures forced the drive out. but one who can not do, can watch, so we took a lesson in petafile 101 and watched 2 stoyac boys basketball games at the middleschool. Let me take this time to note that Kyle Connors is fucking Sick at Basketball.
Then as 2:00 rolled around we thought, whats more sporty then a sandwich. So we found our way to d'angelos and ate us some fine subs. The documented time of arrival is uncertain (2:09 is my guess) but the four of us did not emerge from our seats until about 5:00, so from now on I dine at d'angies with the regs.
I got home watched more Greys Anatomy first season then went out yet again to Christines for Game night. Which was short lived because some boys find it acceptable to cheat. With the love of the game crushed in our minds we (laura x,mike,moco and I) hopped in the benz for the sexiest ride one can ever endure. Hit everyone Mikey D's in a 10 mile radius before we realized there really is no place like ur home town McDonalds. We Doofed in Style Checked out Some Benz in westwood then went back to x's.
When i say this i hope everyone knows what i am talking about, but do you know that stomach dropping dip in the road along bay road, well as fun as it is doing the speed limit, My wildest dreams were reached as we soared through the air at like 80 miles per hour over that hill. This was the definition of natural high. Uh amazing
So, tomorrow is the ski trip and i am very excited. I love my churchies and there is gonna be churchies time 10 so its like a sexual mosh of st james love. well it is now 5:15 and i have plans to go the 6:00 so i'm abouts ta bounce. See ya Wednesday.
-Michelle Alexandra Dominique Audain
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I should be studying for my Chemistry Mid year so its only natural that i update my lj
I would just like everyone to take a Moment of silence for X-teen's picture. Today January 17th while installing a new program she lost every single picture she had ever taken since 8th grade. May the lord lead her in this time of need and may the memory of her digital memories live on in our hearts forever
Amen
School had been riding the gay train fast and hard lately and this girl is not about to jump on. I've been growing less and less tolerant of my surroundings and doing things that in retrospect i regret. So if i insult you i'm sorry you are a complete dumbass
There I go again
I have a really annoying head cold that impairs my speech. I continue to make a complete fool of myself on Knightline. Seriously i wish everyone could experience the feeling of being on a camera early in the morning. Fixing my hair or making a stupid comment on camera seems smart or okay in my head at the time but the second i hear about it i feel like the biggest ass face ever. The camera will change you people. It ruin my fucking life. It will ruin yours.
The notes i have to study for my English Midyear are such abstract things it makes me ill. I honestly could careless if a hawk and some geese represent Odysseus and the suitors. Suck my sides ways "literature"
I am so excited to see high school musical on the disney channel. It is everything i like about a movie all wrapped up into one wonderful 2 hour package. well like and hour 30 maybe. I love it because i am one of those faggoty people who wishes their high school broke out into song. I love this movie for every corny ass moment that will appear on this scene and i love that i don't care that i love it. I'm not gonna pretend like i love some profound thought provoking film when i no i wanna see shit like High School Musical. I love Song, Dance, Teen Actors and Disney i'll beat bitches up if you think i'm stoop for thinkin so.
More people are on birth control then one would believe.
I have been a complete slave to myspace lately seriously check my myspace its pimpski now. I'm choosing to blame my new relationship with myspace on an extremely middleschool senario that makes me ill. Yick.
SO..... broadway revue. Mwa I'm giddy. i'll be sad when this excited nervousness turns into complete fear and anxiety but now i'll just live it up. I love everyone in it and i'm sorry for being such a complete re re at practices i just get so excited. THink of it as a high vamped hands on learning. Oh god i'm the geeky teacher who says things that they think are funny but just makes her students stare at each other with uneasy looks on their faces. I'm Mrs Lisker. I'm Mrs Newhouse, I'm Mrs Field.
I'm going to take this time to express my love for the following people.
Laura Ann Mahoney- this little hoe keeps me young.
Lauren M Gallagher- Just in case i feel like being 5 ur there for me
Pantsticular Motion- I was just informed that in the event that she committ suicide i get her Dvds and i have the wonderful privledge of watching after her American Girl Molly(her first real friend)
Xie Baby- U light up my world baby girl. I'm here for you in ur time of need
Phil Connors- I can talk mad smack to that kid and know he is thinking the exact same thing. Seriously i recommend everyone get into a convo with this kid. he's the shit
Colleen- Gah! I really don't no what i would do with out right now. Neone who thinks that i should get credit for revue stuff if dead wrong. I do the easy stuff
-gotta go s mad d's
Peaceski
-Mikey P
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Its been so long since my last update and even though nothing but regret has come from updates i make when i'm angry i can't help but do this right here, right now
I really hate when people us their livejournals to creat a stand of people and has a safe place to bitch, but i have no choice, my voice is now null in void in the walls of A307. True i have made mistakes in back talk and access talking but GOD give me a chance to redeem myself.
I Can't speak my mind in a meeting
I Can't go after school to talk to miss dancey because that is just a personal attack
I Can't talk to indivduals that are the main problem
So what is there to do. Stu Co has turned into a Dictatorship Miss Dancey is controller and she gives certain people the power to talk.
Such as today in the Meeting There was a dispute between the Senior and Junior Class about sweatpants/pj pants true it was blown way out of wack. We would get 3 words out and miss dancey would yell about how we are being childish and blah blah blah minuets but Kim would talk and talk and talk (a common trend throught out the entire meeting) and just talk her hippie babble about stuff we already. Granted she tried to make nice at the end of the meeting but the dammage was already done and the problem was much bigger than you.
To think that when Miss Dancey became stu co advisor she wouldn't be a moody attention starved "young adult" for lack of a better term, but no she takes sides fucking periods all over us and acts like whiny little bitch when ever we arent completely quite at some stupid meeting where we are talked at for a good 2 hours after a long fucking day
I've been doing every Stu Co thing since i was a freshman so who ever thinks that i don't care can fucking suck me sideway cause all this mandatory ish is getting on my nerves. Like that sport shit
WTF if we are going to be spirited then why don't we be fair
Along with 3 mandatory "ASSIGNED" sports events we should
have to go to marching band competitions
Go to a jazz choir or jazz band competition
a regional science fair
a science olympiad or math competition
a school play or musical
anyother student made event.
don't we have a dance team now >Lets go to there shit
We are obviously not going to do all of that so that sports shit is fucking ridiculous.
So thank you. thank you miss alyssa dancey you have takin a wonderful thing and in attempts to "help us" have run us into the ground Congrats Bitch
Love Always
Michelle
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Today is just a list kinda day
I got tagged by pascale for the 5 song thing and usually i would ignore the trend but how harmless is five songs.
1.Alone in the universe-horton and JoJo
2.Mircales or sumthing-Some girl/every girly disney movie
3.Joyful Joyful- Sister ACT 2
4.Think of me- Christine TPOTO
5. That mr dj song -oh god thats embarrassing
In the spirit of lists i decided to list 20 things that are very wrong about me
1. I ordered a Very Brady Sequel on demand last night
2. I read a 2 paged article in the boston globe about click 5 (thing in your mind how large a newspaper page is)
3. I am the most mentally distrubed of all my friends. I would normally say kc but after reading her journal last night i am shamed to say i am pitiful
4. I adore the music from suessical the musical (xcept for the who's songs, I'm not that much of a fag)
5. I really really liked the movie Sky High to the point where i contimplated seeing it again
6. Come to think of it if a movie has Teen Actors and some kind of run of the mill plot with a twist i will probably like it
7. I have no problem displaying all of the sad sad facts
8. Special K will always be my all time favorite cereal
9. I have horrible motor skills.
a.I only draw stick figure death and sex art for my friends
b.I can't cut in a strait line EVER
10.I keep a journal that serves more as a bitching blog and if any ever read without my censoring i would probably comitt suicide
11. I love the jackson 5
12. I love it when VH1 makes movies about famous people like the Jackson 5 movie or Elvis and me and Pricilla Presley story.
13. I love Canadian Televison
14. I don't posses the mental capasity to play a musical intrusment
15. I watched a show called Grime in New York which consisted of baby kittens with Fleas and rats in babies cribs
16. I find medical shows fasinating to the point where i need to talk about them ALOT
17. I painted my nails clear yesturday
18. i could watch Friends on DVD for days at a time
19. I've become one of those crazy anti medication people with even noticing
20. I made this list
-Michelle Alexandra Dominique Audain Princess of Genovia
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THIS SUMMER REALLY SUCKS ASS
I feel really selfish right now but anger always controlls every other emotion i feel.
Pascale is going for surgery number 2 because they messed up her leg and then her doctor went on vaca and sumother doctor said she would be okay but he was wrong so now my mother is making sure i don't go out.
I know i sound like a horrible horrible person for saying that but i can't be home for stuff like this, i'm just going to become restless and worry myself to death
Fucker.
My family has this notion in their minds that i am in somekind of debt to them because i go out alot. like today's senario was i had to clean the kitchen and vacuum everything because i went out yesturday. I didn't even ask for a ride i just went out. good god.
Becca is home for 3 days and then we all go to camp, becca to pembroke and the rest to field hockey camp, leah still stays strong at maplewood making less than a dollar a day GO LEAH!
I don't think i mesh well with my family, that might be it. I'm very different from all of them.
I miss having a six hour reason to not be confined in the wall of this house.
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Well,
my life has been unsurprisingly uneventful since my last update.
Today i went to elite today, i'll stop there i hate gym talk
When i came home my sister mother and i talked to our next door neighbors in that waving from the car hiya neighbor sort of way, i however was in a bad mood. I have never had a stronger impulse to hit a six yearold more in my life, oh wait i probably have. I must say i did show amazing composure as the younger of the too lived vicariously through her sister's reading ability. which of course brings me to the topic of harry potter.
I'm done, i'm angry, i'm skeptical about the last book. enough said.
I'd like to welcome gallagher back to the world of computers, we've missed you
I'm on hiatus from summer reading. The quality of a book never regesters in my mind when im forced to read it, esspecially when there are 4 to 5 other books just like it waiting for me to read hate and then be tested on. I am probably most bitter because there are tons of books i could be reading but i am stuck with the weight of required reading. I know I don't speak for the entire stoughton school system when i say that i would be reading even if you didn't give me sumthing. You(school intended) have just given my mother a reason to fofil her favorite past time of nagging at me to finish.We had a big discussion at dinner about the classics and summer reading novels therefor the word literature was thrown around so much it was nearly vomit inducing.
I'd like to think that the summer can only get better from the state it is in now, but i can only hope.
I need to listen to more music in my life. Seriously what have the people been listening to cause god knows i'm always about 6 steps behind. Leave me some song that i can download so i can have sumthing to listen to when i'm "hittin it hard" its gym jargin used by a physical therapist who obvioulsy not aware of how his clients sister was not savy with such conversation pieces.
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Disney was better than i could have imagined and since its not worth me taking 3 hours to try and write out everything that we did i'll let these do the talking
http://www.livejournal.com/users/xteen553/57586.html?#cutid1
I'm unbelievably tired as of this moment but my irresponsible parents are now an hour and half late on return from a party at my aunts house, so i'm here trying to stay awake checking the time and praying pascale falls asleep.
Tomorrow Gyna said she would take me to the mall, but she says alot of things.
I drove today and i seriously so nervous i held my breath, it took me like an hour to get somewhat comfortable but i was actually just doing what my father said to do and not actually soaking in the lesson.
Tomorrow i will attend a party
I miss my daily dose of Nicole Weiss, i really don't even no who i'm going to hang out with after school cause with her i can just be blah but w/other people i have to put more effort into keeping up a conversation which is in my top ten most things that most annoys me.
My laptop is in the hospital even though my father pronouced it dead, but we'll see.
I've been living off laura's stories to aid my non exsistent social life, laura=good people thats a life lesson folks, when your in second grade and looking for a best friend pick the weirdo who won't shut up she'll turn out the best.
I have a list of people who i must make plans with this summer or i will be very disappointed
if you are one of the people then lets get that in the making
My parents are now 2 hours late i need to go burn something valuable.
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I ABSOLUTELY WITHOUT A DOUBT LOVE MY FRIENDS MORE THAN ANYTHING
gah yesturday was spectacular (i hate the word amazing) and it goes alittle sumthing like this
I come home from school lookin like butt and just plop down on the couch next to Gyna who was in a bad mood from sleep deprevation since she went to party all night long. Pascale was like pressuring me to get dressed into sumthin nicer and i wasn't havin that shit but i go and shower anyway.
I'm in the shower forever and pascale knocks on the door and is like get out. so i walk up stairs and i see three of my very best friends sitting in the livingroom, i scream " Why the fuck are you here, and why the fuck am i in a towel" then they say we are takin you out to dinner in boston for your bday, so i get dressed, becca shows up and then we go to the train station by way of Amanda Mahoney.
We get there and they won't tell me anything so i'm just standing there staring at train people while they discuss the super secret plan.
We eat at this amazing resturant called Game On its so gorgeous in side and eventhough its like sports themed since it was right next to Fenway. But we had the best fucking "gourmet" nachoes and pizza cause i was informed that we were in a rush.
So as we are paying and laura was like omg wat are these and they were tickets to the CLick Five concert (Backround info a band consisting of 5 gorgeous men from boston that were discovered by kiss 108, but there music isn't like the crap that Kiss 108 overplays and they were at the kiss concert and call me gay but i loved them) and i was so excited so we got the check left and ran down to axis but while we were running laura was like omg thats them and low and behold there in click five walking towards us so we start screaming like childish girls and laura said hey its her birthday and they hugged us and we melted and screamed again as they walked away then we say three gorgeous girls saving us a place in line (143 Jenna Nichole and Kate)
So we get in the club and we are in the front row bascially on the stage. Last Week played first and they were really really good one of their members with the best teeth i've ever seen fell inlove with the twins becca and casey it was so presh. he even kissed casey!
Omg the girl standing next to laura was such a FREAK saw was part of the click five fan club and had been to everyone of their shows and kept asking they were their set list,sweat towelles, and guitar picks. And to top it all off she smelled like old sewage.
Pepper's ghost was really good they were so into their songs and they were completely drunk. The bassist put his beer and redbull right next to nichole.
Ah then click five- there aren't even words- but i expected greatness form them it was fun to see too other bands that i've never heard before but immediately loved.
After the show we met the people and had them all sign gallagher's ticket and i took a picture with the drummer of click five fyi i have a weekness for drummers.And he knew it was my b day and me like molested me while leah was taking the picture but i loved everysecond of it.
After we were still on our concert high we walked around then went to coldstones and had the best icecream. they even sang whenever they got a tip.
Thanks to Laura Casey Becca and Leah for the best night ever. I love you guys.
Gallagher i can't wait till you see the ticket.
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I've realised that i never cry when i'm sad
I only cry when i angry/frustrated
such is life
I tried to think of times when i cry (ex.death leaving) but realized that i was just extremely angry that that person isn't with me anymore.
I've realized the fact that the seniors left won't hit me until next year when they are really actually gone away to different cities and lengthing their steps into the real world.Its probably because i have a really hard time becoming dependent on people.Don't get me wrong i love those departing few or somewhat many this year but wishin and hopin and thinkin and prayin (ha lyrics)has never really been my thing.
Now that i think about it i'm really bad at being sad, I just go right into angry. Fuck my bad attitude
Today in french we had to write 5 things we wanted to do before we die mine were vague and it reminded me how thinking about the future makes me ill, I Had the medical school thing down that a givin but i really can't decide between psychiatrics or radiology. I like physciatry more, but i feel like radiology is more stable. FUCK w/e i'm only a sophomore who will soon be a junior who will have to take the sats and do will in school and then be a senior and apply for college and then hopefully i'll commit suicide and end it all early.
We met the woman who is taking over Dolans job today, they kind of had the same haircut her name is mrs. meyers and she didn't talk everyone eles did, she didn't.
THIS JUST IN- i've decided to become a cat deflesher, its the only thing i'm good at in school.
except i stabbed myself in the hand with the dirty ass scaple and now it looks quite infected
AWESOME !!!
The history MCAS was the most unnessecary thing i've ever done. I'm sueing the state for the half hour of my life they stole.
My Birthweek is soon June 6-12 BUY ME THINGS.
the anniversery of my birth is the 8th
I heard mrs.ellis lost 150 pounds. good for her, i'm sure she's glad to be out of the chode club. Speaking of chodes i'm righting an editorial in journalism opposing Chuck Daly (the king of chodes) opinion on class dues. But i can understand how one can be misinformed and bitter when william golding based a character off you for the book lord of the flies. If u didn't understand that allusion u don't deserve too.
Gyna is a whore and won't let me go to sams to see her be pretty and have sex with hoesph. Now i must stay home and pray not to catch her whoreness.
I get free shoes for being motivated and achedemic downside is my heirs can't work for nike or anyother competitor of reebok "in the universe"
So i leave you with the famous quote from the poet Laura Ann Carmella Mahoney
Crackpot Suckabitch
-your boo
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I really fucking hate righting about serious shit in my lj but i'm in such a bad mood describing would send me on a shooting spree
Maybe i missed some new wave of acceptance but when did it become okay to use the n word in casually conversation that is either refering to someone or a group of people.
And i'm not talkin about god damn rappers. I mean there is negative history behind that, that i always thought would be respected.This goes for any negative term used for a nationality or religion. W/e maybe i'm just old fashion to still feel a twang of anger whenever i hear it said or see it written especially in its er form. You no what Fuck everything i just said the last thing i need to be thought of is some black rights activist bitch. Which reminds me....
Who ever thinks its okay to call someone a beast or "big and black" is trully fucked up. Maybe in the messed up world that goes on in your mind people like being acknowledged like that but not me. Oh yeah this generalization is actually about me so fuck this pussy vagueness.
Today i was told "Omg michelle you actually seemed Feminine" (or sumthing) while i screamed as a bug took landing on my chest. WHAT AM I A FUCKING BOY. gawd, i mean usually you read about girls having to act girly infront of guys but having to seem more like a girl just so girl won't make a god damn girly reference towards you if trully fucked up . I'm sorry that i happen to be the complete opposite of the frail helpless being some depict females to be but i have a Vagina you stupid bitches so i don't need people telling things to exagerate my worst insecurites.
This is a reoccuring event so the person i targetted above should not take totally offence.
I'm tired of brushing it off. I hate the fucking the sterotype of blackness. Its not me, its not who i like to actlike or want to be stamped with.
I especially hate it in a singing way. I want to actually be takin seriously. i'm sick of someone voicing their opinion about "black voices" and then taking it back as soon as they realize i'm in the room.
Fuck this its just making me angry. Comment please because if you don't have and answer to my first paragraph or some kind redemption for a false accusation i've made then i am completly right and for that
I'm greatly depressed
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[13 Apr 2005|03:28pm] |
Its been exactly a month since my last entry so i decided to update
alot has happened but nothing valid enough for me to remember
I've become emotionally unstable and have come to a state in my life where i can't control my anger. Today however i was unusually calm and only had a small mental brake down after school while talking to sean, everyother line in the conversation was "OH MY GOD i no exactly wat you mean"
Oh a high note, my reflexes are working unbelievably well
I am spending so much of my parents money it is making me cry for them and their accounts
1. Disney- 700 dollars + 300 dollars
2. Camp- 500 dollars
3. Paris & Madrid- about 2,500 dollars
4. My constant need to by clothing
5. Just the fact that i suck them dry just by living in their house
Its just my luck that the day i pass in my application for the paris trip i get a letter for the second deposit for disney
and i don't have a fucking job I NEED A GOD DAMN JOB
will someone fucking employee me
I no its cause i'm black
and they won't take gallagher because she's transparent
FUCK THE FREE WORLD
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[13 Mar 2005|09:58am] |
Yesturday was fun
Well I had fun
Jazz choir one first place and Jazz band got nothing because they were so bad and none of they especially peter, lisa, and alec can play intrusments at all.
Oh yeah, I want to take this time to praise Colleen cause she said what really needed to be said and i have ur back 100% on that shit.
Friday after school was fun, because michael danced in the hallway and i laughed yet cried all at the same time, and i think he said something funny but i don't remember what it was. I should have it only happens but once a year.
I participated in some major bondage and made a complete fool of my self with nicole while making love to a fooz ball table. GAH!
Saturday was the compo and the location was ideal but the weather left much to be desired.I sat with nicole to berklee and we watched all the couples do their couple things and reminished about our lesbian mind setting for take me or leave me, I still can't believe the work/i got the harmony/sounded good after only one day of practice at dolans computer and me be stupid because i'm tone deaf and can't pick up on notes.
I got to look in closets for a iron with mr davey but he stopped caring about the iron and more about the architecture of the school. oh and he stil internally hates me.
The jazz band played and i was blown away. i'm not gonna lie i've never really liked watching band in general before because me being a person of spontaneous movement and loud yelling can't really sit through it, but wow u guys were fucking amazing
I got a pretty lip gloss and eye shadow at sephora which is also the only store i went to besides Jasmine sumthing that was pretty but highly over priced. The gloss is called Kiss me and i got it after i took some of Betty and Nicole's. It pretty and minty and wonderful. I tried on like every lip gloss in the store and my lips looked very glossy and swollen by the end. The eye shadow is a dark purple but it looks lighter on me cause well..... I'M BLACK
the ride home was kinda fun even though I went insane and sang with nicole and megan until we were told to shut up. evil whores
I came home at like 10:15 watched degrassi and ate dinner and then went to bed
well actually i watched to the swan princess its in my top 10 of favorite disney music. It just doesn't get enough credit. I once again had really fucked up dreams so as usual i called gallagher in the morn and we talked about them cause she's gonna be a child phsycologist
Now i'm sitting hear typing to you and in desperate need to bathe
so i will do that.... now
maybe later
Much love
MICHIE
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[20 Feb 2005|01:17pm] |
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I live for the mutha fuckin drama
there is nuthing like the feeling of reading someone's livejournal entry and getting physically sick because of all the bull shit stirred up and put into words on a good damn website.
Maybe its the massive swelling of my leg and its taking over my thought buts i really can't take it nemore, i can't act like i'm okay with the way i "adjust" to some people. I hate beating around the bush like this and sounding like a pussy but there is a difference between speaking ur mind and just being flat out rude, so i will continue to beat around this wonderful bush.
Seriously if everyother entry that you write is a rant about how much u hate ur life or how bad things r for u just so u can read comments like, omg no ur not i love you sooo much xoxo, then what the hell r u looking for, Julie and Nicole r right the lj world is stupid drama but once the drama turns to sentimental feel bad for me, i'm so scared, love me now bull shit then something is seriously wrong
Now that that is over with let me inform the public on home fuckin excited i am for the ski trip, and yes its a churchie trip, but it lets me go on vacations with my best friends, i'll hug a bible and say a prayer neday for that chance. i get to see X, ha can't wait. I still have to pack but i'm not in the mood.
I've been living off laura so far this vaca and we finally saw other people last night. We went to the movies with moco and sat and watched previews in the eating area until mike came. We saw Jared, Josh , and Tonka we were 15 times more excited to see them then they were to see us. We looked at the movies and found out the only one we could actually see with out someone older and in our time frame was because of winn dixie so we ran out and went to outback, but there was an hour and 20 minuet wait so we went to bertuchies and i can't spell for shit so don't make fun of me, we talked about the old days orders the cheapest/most filling meal and then went back the lauras house and those were so fucking good times that i can't write in fear that this site is previewed by legal forces
There r flip flops at abercrombie that say "Don Haiti" as in don't hate for those of u who didn't catch on
i haven't decided if its funny or just a plain waste of um.....flip flop material
u decide POLL TIME, wat do u think
But, all good things must come to an end
so goodbye
love to ya mothas
Michie
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I've grown dependent on lint brushes
some people choose coffee
some choose drugs
there is always people who are addicited to sex
but no, Lint brushes r my weakness
I worked on my science project last night
cry for me
For the record i feel like shit i have caught the virus my parents released into our living quarters and its making me hate life
I actually had the ability to sleep very late todayn but Michael Donovan called at 9 45 looking for a table so i got my ass out of bed looked for a table and Pasky drove me to Stop and Shop. we got there and Pasky being the marketing genius she is said we needed a sign so we went to cvs and got poster broad and a sharpie but while we were walking in i walked into a car backing out to avoid the car next to it backing out, but u really only need one leg in life.
Sickness hurts my brain
I saw Lisa at Dunkies and we chatted it was fun i looked like butt but it was fun.
i still look like butt and have been reading livejournals for the past 20 minuets it hurts my back to sit for this long ouch. i can't even crack my back nemore it hurts so god damn much, but josh weiss put me to shame when he cracked his back in tv production, i distinctly heard everything crack individually and for that i commend u
Jared Demetri and Josh have finally let me and gallagher into their group, only because we get As but the combination of their funny with the fact that Mrs. Dolan sweats me and gallagher will go far.
Anoymous commmenters r really the dumbest thing ever, if your gonna insult someone will you just say it to them and not be some pussy bitch who hides behind the privacy or technology
I hope this gives me plenty of aynomous commenters that i can laugh at, so please comment away
I'm tired, i need sleep
bye
Love Peace and Chicken Grease
Michelle
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